“From comparing myself to other bloggers, to thinking my photography isn’t a high enough quality or hearing people say negative things about my blog – it can really affect my self confidence.”
I have actually had this blog post part written in my drafts folder for a while now, but I never posted it and now I am mid uni lecture trying to finish it… SO HERE WE GO. There are probably a thousand different mini blog posts that I could write about this because I have dealt with this ever since I created my blog. To say my blog and I have love hate relationship is vvvery much an understatement. I have mentioned it before in some of my other blogs like ‘Why Instagram Pods Were Damaging My Engagement’ and ‘Taking a Breather‘ but I struggle heavily on a daily basis with the way that I think about my blog. It was only last Monday I had a lil’ breakdown about my photos! Haha!
From comparing myself to other bloggers, to thinking my photography isn’t a high enough quality or hearing people say negative things about my blog – it can really affect my self confidence. Every blogger is pressured to produce content that isn’t ‘common’ and to make it unique it because a CHORE. But here are my issues in a lil’ bit more detail but WHY its okay to feel a bit crappy every now and then (yes its a self-help blog too 😉 ) so let me just grab my coffee whilst I type away…
I have my blog, I have a part-time job and I am currently on my first year of a university course… Time is DEFO not on my side. I am finding myself trying to fit in everything like coursework, taking photos and blogging all at once and I feel swamped by the amount I feel like I have to do towards my blog. I will admit, maybe if I stopped watching as much TV (but that is not gonna happen now I’m A Celeb has just started) and took just an hour to do some admin I might not feel as bad, however that’s where I am lazy. LAZYLAZYLAZY.
I know I need to sit down and focus on replying to Instagram, connecting with other bloggers and going through BlogLovin’ to improve my blog and growth but is that going to happen?? NO. But I am starting to understand that if I put too much pressure on myself to fulfil everything I am going to go mentallllll. So its okay not to get everything done. Maybe spending time when I have a chilled day, or when I don’t have loads of work to catch up on!
I have had my fair share of trolling experiences from my blog, nearly every time though I have just LOLLED it off. Why take trolls seriously? I don’t know them! They are hidden by their keyboards and they don’t know me either so their negative opinions are pointless to me. I have literally just seen ignorant comments and showed my friends and we all have a laugh about it.
But when people I know make comments about my blog, it can be a bit more meaningful and they know the effort I put into my blog. I have debated giving up my blog multiple times, and when you put so much time and investment into something you don’t want it to be joked about. However I know I need to learn how to just shrug it off and lighten up a bit, but I think that will come when my confidence about my blog does!
Instagram is a GEM. Like the person who made it = a bloody genius!! But for me… I hate it! I look at influencers who are growing their pages at triple the rate mine is growing and I am just like ‘WHAT AM I DOING WRONG’. My likes might not be plentiful but at the end of the day my mental health is worth more than worrying over a photo! Whenever I speak to people and fellow bloggers they are all so lovely and so complimentary it makes me wonder if they are looking at the same page! There is no point me getting pissed off or worried about social media. I have to do other things in my day which doesn’t allow time for scrolling through endless amounts of feed. I’ll figure it out in my own time and if you are the same then that’s OKAY BABE.
I am very much trying to follow what other people create sometimes but NO THATS NO OKAY. Unique is OKAY! Sometimes I will find a theme I like, or the way I edit my photos but then days later I am like ‘Nah this is not good’. I need to stick to something and realise the way I edit, take my photos or write is okay and I don’t need to rely on what everyone else is doing. Consistency is key and I need to be patient to see the results.
I would love to know what you think about this and whether you have the same thoughts as me about blogging!
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