• How To Chill The ‘F’ Out

    Just warning you, this is going to be a bit of a chatty post and a waffle filled post (the writing kind not the food – unfortunately) so bare with…

    When going through school, I was very much a perfectionist. I would be told it by everyone, my teachers, my mum and anyone who basically knew me. I wouldn’t be happy with the work I had done unless it was utterly perfect. When I did my fashion BTEC, there was no way counting how many times I redid my work because it was too many too count. I have always seen this carrying through to my blog too. If I don’t like the photos I take, or the content I am writing I will scrap the whole post. I don’t want to post anything half-heartedly. BUT even though I say this I still feel like a lot of my posts are like that. They aren’t but thats my perfectionist in me coming out… Get what I am trying to say???

    When I finished school I had the whole summer and even though I relaxed, went on my hols and had the *best summer ever* I was a bit more strict with my blog. I would upload regularly, pay attention to my Instagram and I actually had a bit of income coming through from my blog. My Instagram gained more followers in the two months I was off than I had gained in a year and the glory FELT DAMN GOOD.

    But then I started uni. I will admit I was really naive to the whole starting uni process. Because my course is all about fashion media and marketing I thought it would suit my blog so well. And TRUST ME it does, but I also thought it would allow me to get better images, and boost my following instantly. Don’t ask me why but I was a bit unrealistic.

    “I was very much a perfectionist.”

    I love uni so much, it has changed my life for the better and honestly its amazing. However it has meant that I can’t devote the time to my blog or Instagram that I did over the summer. I am nearly finished with my first year, so I know I can start becoming that full time blogger again. BUT meanwhile I have had to learn how to ‘Chill the F Out’ when I can’t.

    Do I sometimes feel a bit down not seeing growth? Yeah. Does it stress me out a little? Yeah. Knowing I have put a lot of previous work and money into my blog is sometimes what keeps me going. I don’t want to give up, but sometimes I do think about what my life would be like without my blog.

    “I have had to learn to know when it is okay to take a step back and realise my blog will still be there tomorrow. “

    Saying all this though, even though if I kept to a strict blogging routine and you don’t know I might be more successful than I am today, I think I would have driven my self insane. Hahah okay, not insane, but I wouldn’t have been able to cope. I need a bit of down time as I do juggle my uni, a part time job and a blog.

    So I think what I am trying to say is that its OKAY not to have a strict routine of uploading posts or making content. Its only human to have activities and life taking over your schedule. In the summer, when I have finished uni, a strict schedule is maybe what I need to organise my life and actually make progress with my blog. I have had to learn to know when it is okay to take a step back and realise my blog will still be there tomorrow. If my followers aren’t then they are just missing out on some brill content right? 😉

    In other words, cheers to learning to chill the f-out a bit and blossoming in my own way and time. And maybe if that includes a girly cocktail catch-up then thats okay!

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    1 Comment

    1. 18/04/2019 / 2:01 am

      I’m definitely trying to learn how to do that now!

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